fucking bastards.

bastards are bitches who look like men.


you're such a liar, you know? i can't believe i considered you last time. i am kicking myself. haha.
HAHA.


dashboard confessional - stolen

the ready set - limits

bad day. :( i'm sick.
i woke up with bad headaches. so i didn't study that much today at the library. it was torture actually. whenever i move my head, its like someone's poking my head from the inside.
aargggghhhh. too many late nights and scrubbing my head with that stupid STUPID brush thingy. seriously.

i'm confused. :/

pmr's in two weeks and my kh and sejarah still suck. oh maiiiii.
D: please please please let my headaches be gone by tmrww.

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LOLOL, so, AMAZINGLY, there are people reading my blog.
but wait. one reader does not count. hang on, two.

the library is a very meaningful place to me. ;)
for a whole looot of reasons. :D

HAAHAHAHAHHAHAAAAHHHHHH EPIC STUFF.


holy shit if pmr's in 16 days..
i think i've come a long way since going to the library. all i need to improve now is my sejarah, kh, and chinese.
and some more geo.

one day I'm gonna feel again.

okay. yeshh. i'm sure everyone did it this way too. we heard this awesome sounding song on star movies. then suddenly you see taio cruz - feel again at the bottom! (Y) i love you star movies!

nothing to update. :) just blogging for the sake of blogging.
ohmygosh pmr! pmr! pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmrp mr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr pmr prm
that's the only thing on my mind.

oh and something else.

it's amazing how thing's can change in less than 24 hours. you can be complete strangers and not know what to say to each other.
shizzitman.
blown all chances now, have i?
obviously.
***

wanna kick myself. or kick you. but im not even sure what the reason is.
:/


lol. blogging this was such a waste of time. -.- dont bother reading this.

you're the one thing on my mind.

what the bloody FUG is wrong with my facebook? why do i have to keep logging in like every one minute?! seriously.
omg. it might be a sign. that i should study.
but wth i've already studied the whole frigging day today stupid computer.
argh fuggit i'm gonna read cleo. i bought the big fat issue already! :D
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhh.
FUG.
fugfugfugfugfugfugfuggityfug.
LOL.

a loooot of people were at the library today :O
stupid mad went home early. then eu weng and loi ditched me too.
(Y)
geez mad please go back later tomorrow! T.T
***

i don't wanna go to school at all. blah.
i wanna go to the library and study my eyeballs out.
ok. i should do it this way.
go to school once a week only.
yeah that sounds good.

mmmmmhm i feel like going to the library again.
fug the stupid guards.
morons. lifeless. nuts. gits.
***

i am proud to say that i've successfully hardcore studied like a total NERD, absolutely.
not proud to say that i only began it recently. :X
i feel like a nerd. :) really and truly.
***

fml fml fml.
***

i spent a lot of time yesterday reading MLIA. MLIA.
***

federer lost to djokovic like wtf. -.- i'm so glad i didn't bother staying up to watch. i didn't stay up cause i was sure federer would beat djokovic -.- -.-
D: D: hoping for a good US open final but turns out all the finals will be total disappointments this time. nadal will obviously trash djokovic straight sets there wont be any fight. just like clijsters trashed zvonareva.
ughhh. things are horrible.
nadal is hoooooooooooot.
***

library opening soon. cannot wait. love the library. teeeheeeee.
i like eating bittergourd.

and i'm going to study now. ciao de miao.


P.S. few more weeks till i can go wild and won't be falling apart. (Y) ohh and i wont be going on holiday RIGHT after pmr, only late oct. so that means i wont be missing out on after-pmr fun. YAYYY. decided not to go for paramore. money is still money. :X
i'll save it up for muse next year. (Y) :D

defying gravity.

To see a cardboard box in your dream, indicates a lack of protection against risk.
If you like pigs and think that pigs are cute, then your dream about a dirty fat pig represents your misconception about certain things. What you believe and what is reality may be two different things. This pig may be analogous to a relationship or a man in your life. You think that the pig will be a certain way, but in actual reality is not at all what you imagined.

okaaayy. the first explanation about pigs was something about greediness and gluttony. BUT i think pigs are cute. :)
***

shitshitshiit no one's online aka everyone is studying. i just did. but since everyone's obviously been doing it hardcore, i think i should too. SHIZZ. :X
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i feel like dying man. i have to go to the library. seriouslyyyyyyyyyyy. :/
Aarrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i have a big fat humongous headsplitting headbanging murderous gigantic ouchie yeowpie headache. i NEVER hardly ever get headaches but i feel like my head's gonna die.

you know whattt. i think it's back to the same thing i did a month before upsr. wake up at 6 every morning to study. except. right now. i think i should wake up at 5.
okay.
i, will. wake up. at FIVE am EVERY morning to STUDY. FIVE SHARP. no setting the snooze button all the way to 7. -.-
i can wake up at 5 hare hare i can wake up at 5 hare hare hare hare. i can do it hare hare.

let me hold you, for the last time.

media player's on shuffle and broken strings randomly came up! :O
remember singing that song eevery day of form 2 its as if we were ipods on replay.

anyway. i haven't mentioned this. but the guards at the ttdi library are real faggots. __
i'm pretty sure everyone else agrees with me. stupid stupid stupid dudes. ishh.
***

library closed at 1.30 so i'm home early. -.- -.- they only told us at like, ONE? -.-
wtf right. oh god i'm stuffed with mcdonald's i can barely think. phooewwwwwwww.
pmr's in godknows how many days. i'm screwed. :)
***

we cry for those who never care for us. and we care for those who will never cry for us.
got that off sabrina's blog. so many things are making sense to me lately.
brandon's status is "happy things only last for a short while".
so true?
dont walk into my life if you intend to leave me.
either i'm jinxed. or something.
i always end up being disappointed.
whatever.
WHAT. E. VER.
***

anywayyys. fuck pmr.
i stole two books from the library. borrowed. whatever.
maybe i wont give them back.
***

big bad foul mood. very very angry.
i wanna play tennis but there's no tennis on sat due to bloody raya. -.-
i played like shit that day anyway. lol. embarassing sial.
***

OMG federer beat soderling straightsets but it was a good fight. goshh. i'm glad federer won but i'd like to see soderling win a slam.

anyways. should go for tryouts for malaysian open? coach says it's a waste of time, very very tiring. but i'd like the uniform. and i'd get to see the ahem, hot people. ;)

stand up. fml.

i love melee.
talking to sabrina for so long yesterday. i felt a lot better. then mom had to scold me. whatever.
i had one of the worst nightmares in my life yesterday. not the worst, but close to it.
honestly, i don't watch gory stuff, where does my brain get those stuff from?
i'm gonna type it out here anyway.
nevermind. it involves a gigantic pig which looks possessed. a daring man. a styrofoam box. a gladiator ring. i have no idea how the bloody pig managed to gut the man. all i know is, i could hear the man screaming so loudly, and the next, the styrofoam box is in pieces and i can see the man's guts. ughh.

i have a feeling that i'm gonna do really badly in pmr. but i can't. i really have to concentrate on pmr now. i need to stop thinking about nexus already. i didn't get it. means. i didn't get it. and it's not gonna change no matter how much i think about it. but i'm still really disappointed.
hello spm. guess i'll be meeting you after all. unless i keep trying for other scholarships.
but i have to get straight A's for pmr.
oh GOD.
what am I supposed to do now??


i really really need to talk to you.

crap holidays. i need to talk to people. i need to see kim, audrey, and all the rest. how am i gonna survive the holiday.
oh i dunno.


fml.

.

mm so i didn't get chosen for the interview. only eight people did.

together we're invincible.

mmmmmmh you know how much deep shit I'm in. takin chinese for pmr is a big big fat mistake now. to me. dunno what happened to me. i just cant shit out a single good essay. my essays used to be OKAY. not good but close to good. now wtf wtf. everyone else is better than me.

im in deep shit. pmr's a month away but i'm not really HARDCORE studying. shit man. shit shit shiiit. it's like i WANT to study, but the computer's right here. I wish i never knew about the computer.


tomorrow's monday. oh NO. :/ please call me please please please. if i don't get a call i'll be so disappointed. so close to getting out of gov school. so close to not needing to care about spm.

crap la. extend the time please. i need more time. :X

you knoww. sometimes. i've thought of something funny which i know you'd wanna hear. then i remember. you're not talking to me. or at least. you don't bother. whatever. i don't care. but then. oh whatever. go to hell. i feel like deleting you off fb sometimes. :)

i wish i didn't have a heart. or i could turn off my heart button so that it's all brain. cause. i really need to study.

kk i'll go study now. oh wait. i have to write two chinese essays. FML.

fml seriously.

sharapova vs wozniacki. (Y)

warped and bewitched, time to erase.

omg i love muse so much.
i swear i will kick anyone's butt who disses muse.
**

nexus exam. one word. TOUGH.
they tested us on phys, bio, and chem for the science paper.
kesian examiner. has to read all my crap whether he likes it or not. :P
english was hard in my opinion.
maths was OKAY.
wteff am i doing on the computer. D:
5 mins more, i'll go study geo.

shit shit shitttttt. PMR omg.
ok i'll go study geo now.
bai.