UNFAIR.
went for this seminar on dating in church. lol.
went for the cny party ystd. literally got down on my knees to go for it.
i guess it was worth it. i guess. i swallowed my pride okay.
ermm. i was kinda early even though i was technically late. and thank god jason and newton came in after that. ermmm. ERRRMMMM.
i saw all the camp people. and i met new people. it was fun i guess.
yada yada yada. what can i say.
i feel down in the dumps. miserable. want-to-cry-at-any-second. whine like crap. yell. make everyone listen to my miserable crap complaints. want to make everyone else's life miserable too. want to tear something up. want to rewind time. want to make myself *** to you know who. want to go to school but when i go to school tomorrow i'll wish i was at home. dont want to go back to normal life. dont want to wake up. want him to reply me NOW.
i feel really terrible. i want to talk to someone but there's no one.
please don't tell me to talk to God.
i'm feeling really resentful towards Him now. Why can't He give me what i want. i guess everyone feels like that one point or other. but really. God You hear me right.
Knock and the door will be opened. Ask and it shall be given.
Well. I haven't just asked. I've begged. Cried.
Faith? Well maybe I am lacking just that.
bloody hell. why does it take you so long to reply. YOU SAY YOU'RE LYING ON YOUR FREAKING BED. WOULD THAT TAKE YOU AGES TO REPLY ME. UNLESS YOU FREAKING FELL ASLEEP.
Not going to mince words.
I'm pissed. at everything. at the world. at him. at my friends. at God.
I'm not sorry.
went for the cny party ystd. literally got down on my knees to go for it.
i guess it was worth it. i guess. i swallowed my pride okay.
ermm. i was kinda early even though i was technically late. and thank god jason and newton came in after that. ermmm. ERRRMMMM.
i saw all the camp people. and i met new people. it was fun i guess.
yada yada yada. what can i say.
i feel down in the dumps. miserable. want-to-cry-at-any-second. whine like crap. yell. make everyone listen to my miserable crap complaints. want to make everyone else's life miserable too. want to tear something up. want to rewind time. want to make myself *** to you know who. want to go to school but when i go to school tomorrow i'll wish i was at home. dont want to go back to normal life. dont want to wake up. want him to reply me NOW.
i feel really terrible. i want to talk to someone but there's no one.
please don't tell me to talk to God.
i'm feeling really resentful towards Him now. Why can't He give me what i want. i guess everyone feels like that one point or other. but really. God You hear me right.
Knock and the door will be opened. Ask and it shall be given.
Well. I haven't just asked. I've begged. Cried.
Faith? Well maybe I am lacking just that.
bloody hell. why does it take you so long to reply. YOU SAY YOU'RE LYING ON YOUR FREAKING BED. WOULD THAT TAKE YOU AGES TO REPLY ME. UNLESS YOU FREAKING FELL ASLEEP.
Not going to mince words.
I'm pissed. at everything. at the world. at him. at my friends. at God.
I'm not sorry.